Do they believe me?

11712252-character-discussion-isolated-on-a-white-backgroundThey say that group therapy is a mini version of our personal World. The encounters we experience on the outside will mirror those we have in the group.

I shared a little about my experiences with sexual abuse at a group three weeks ago and included the story I told in my last post. That was actually the first time I had referred to it during this therapy programme, not because I was in a state of avoidance, but it had somehow become lesser than the trauma I endured at the hands of my parents. I erroneously assumed the Therapists already knew my history. Is this why they doubt me?

Years ago, I would talk loosely about the sexual abuse, but could never utter a sound about the trauma associated with my parents. During the course of the last few weeks, I’ve come to realise the influence these unnatural sexual experiences had on my childhood and it’s now so easy to identify the psychological effects that rippled through my World.

The first time I ever told someone about the sexual abuse was at the tender age of eighteen and I’ve revealed it to a few other people since then. At no time did it ever enter my head that someone might disbelieve me, which makes this recent experienceth7K0M9FOH with the Therapists even more mystifying. But, why now?

When I blurted it out to the group, the Psychotherapist, Frankie asked, “Why have you not mentioned this before?” For a moment, her tone sounded incredulous. Surely, this is no surprise to the therapy service.

The following week, I broached the subject again at group and Frankie does not appear to take me seriously. I imagine this is how a victim feels when no one is listening or believing.

I take it to my individual Therapist, Paul, last week and he said it is the first he ever heard of it and I cannot understand why. Paul seems to believe everything I say, but I cannot trust his words, he would only be playing the good Therapist role.

The next group therapy was two days ago, Friday. During the “Check in,” I was the only person to raise something I wanted to talk about during the group. As soon as I said, “It is about the sexual abuse,” that familiar bad smell of doubt came wafting through from Frankie. It has taken years to find my voice and I couldn’t help but wonder if I will ever be able to trust her again.

thQNZW12EVThe entire group felt like a social gathering down the pub, some were chatting about telly programmes, others laughing over someone’s excommunication from a church. As each single_one_of_the_ninety_minutes_dragged_on, my world was collapsing in on me, as if I was literally melting into the child within, even the chair felt far too big for me.  My eyes were glued to the floor.  No one noticed.  I felt invisible.  Vulnerable.  How can I tell anyone about the abuse? No one is listening. I have no voice.

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73 thoughts on “Do they believe me?

  1. The Elephant in the Room

    I hope you can trust her again because I think its good to talk. But, at the same time its very unprofessional for them to react that way. Infact, Its horrible that you feel that way but I understand.

    Sometimes when I tell people thingsI am only just ready to talk about I feel they don’t believe me and i don’t know if thats a paranoia thing or something else.

    Have you tried to explain that you didnt want to talk about it until now because you didn’t feel comfortable?

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    1. Cat Post author

      I think Paul understand that I have been completely locked within the trauma with my parents, I just couldn’t see past it, until now. As soon as that trauma was out the way, I started to realise the effects of the sexual abuse. I could also be projecting onto the group Therapist Frankie what I felt as a child. Who knows, but it ripped me up and spat me out

      Thank you for your feedback, it really helps

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  2. Priceless Joy

    This was extremely rude of them! I am afraid I would want no part of that therapy group again. They forced you back into the same position as you were in as a child, vunerable, confused, unheard, and unnoticed. Definately talk to Paul about this and please let him know how it made you feel. Personally, it makes me angry just thinking about it. It makes me wonder how qualified those therapists are.

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    1. Cat Post author

      I felt they pushed me back into those feelings, but the one good thing that came out of it is that I actually connected with those feelings from childhood and that is a very important healing point of therapy. So, I can see both good and bad. But, don’t worry, I am never slow in speaking my mind, as long as I am calm and in control. They will be left in no doubt what I think of their group leadership skills. There were actually two group leaders, Frankie and a friggin Psychiatric Doctor…. tut tut… but never mind, Joy, as I said, every cloud has a silver lining, eh?

      Thank you for commenting and supporting with all your heart 😉

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      1. Priceless Joy

        Good for you Cat! I’m glad you could see the good along with it! I am afraid I would have been too furious to have seen it. LOL! I can see how it is necessary to connect with those childhood emotions but my question is, who the hell wants to! Haha!! LOL

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  3. kat

    oh im so sorry. it is difficult to trust what personal therapists say sometimes, is it because they are saying what they are supposed to, or is it really what they think and feel? and it sounds as if Frankie, from your perspective, may be quite doubtful about your issues. if Frankie really is as you perceive, then it seems to me you must find a way to speak with Frankie alone, to bring up your worries and concerns. and to get either validation or not. and if not, you know you need another group or whatever. and if yes, then it will have cleared the air and you will be able to trust Frankie and not feel doubted. and yes, i do understand how anxiety provoking it is to broach the issue with an authority type figure on a subject so close and personal to you. but i believe that if you are strong enough to bring up the issue at all, that you are strong enough to talk with Frankie too. Gather your strength, resources and grounding materials, and when you are ready, do it…. and all good wishes, strength and support coming your way. hope you get it all sorted sooner not later.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Thanks Kat. I can speak to Paul and he will share with the team. I am probably imagining it and projecting childhood feelings onto the group. Even still, she did a bad job of holding the group together and keeping track of what was important. I will probably speak to her too, but it needs to be in the group, we are not allowed to talk outside, the issues is within the group. I don’t have a problem with that… when I’m ready.
      Thank you for understanding, it helps

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  4. therabbitholez

    Sexual abuse is so huge and not something you just blurt out, does it matter that they knew before a resounding NO, your ready to talk about it now.

    As professionals they should understand the effects of not being believed an how that can hinder future progress, her attitude was unprofessional.

    You should not have left there feeling like you have no voice , your not invisible and your trying to deal with what happened to you, therapy should be productive.

    I hope you keep trying to have your voice heard.

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    1. Cat Post author

      I agree, it was very unprofessional and, especially with sexual abuse, they should be aware of the self doubt and insecurities. This group leader has had a lot of doubt on her by other group members, people feel she cannot control a group and now I believe that too.

      Thank you for your feedback, it means a great deal to me

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  5. jamborobyn

    All I can say is, I understand how you feel, Cat. Last week an acquaintance suggested I should see a therapist to help me with my “issues” after mentioning that my mother had sent a depressing letter. My reply to her was that I have seen a few therapists in the past (maybe 4 sessions in total) and they have been among the most humiliating experiences of my life. Disbelief, judgment, breaking down in tears and asking how I coped with my childhood! At the time it was no use to me, but looking back on the experiences, it showed me that trust is required, something I am unable to give to people in authority who aren’t empathetic or able to respond with wisdom. You can see why I am so interested in your journey, I never made it as far as you :-). You seem to have a good relationship with Paul, so I truly hope the situation clarifies and everyone remembers you are there to get assistance, not dramatics! In fact, if they don’t sort it out so that you are comfortable call me and I’ll give them some dramatics! Be safe, be well, be at peace. You are a beautiful worthy soul who isn’t broken, who isn’t a liar, who has given these people the gift of your trust. May they honour it.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Gosh, your experiences of therapy sound awful and I’m not surprised you don’t go forward with it. You’re right, trust in needed and they know I have never trusted anyone in my life and, just as I’m starting to trust, this happens gggrrrrr. I don’t deal very well with dramatics, so I will call on you to annihilate them!

      Thank you, Robyn, your comment brings me great comfort

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  6. gloriamidwife

    I always tell people that the worst thing about opening up to people is not the actual “confession” of said issue, but any nonchalance or uncaring attitude that may come from the other party. It’s a huge deal to finally open up to someone, especially something so big, and then to feel like no one cares or believe you.

    I hope that at the very least, you can bring up the feeling of distrust that comes from them and that a clear explanation can come from it. I hope you’re able to truly open up and feel like they’re accepting every word you give them.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Gloria… The worst thing is people’s responses, especially if, like me, you cannot trust to begin with. The defences are up and the castle gates are now closed. It will be difficult to open them up again in a group. Of course, I will have to share my feelings, otherwise I couldn’t continue. Thank you for your feedback, other people’s understanding helps immensely 😉

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  7. The Professionally Depressed Professional

    Therapists are paid to listen to understand and not listen to reply. I’m sorry that you have had to this type of experience. Don’t ever worry about not having a voice: you found it here and many of us are hearing you. Stay strong!

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  8. borderlinefunctional

    I’m so sorry that the people who you trusted to respect, understand and listen to your experiences have made you feel so invalidated and disbelieved.
    Opening up about such painful experiences often brings about great self judgement as well as concern over what the recipient/s of the story is thinking. I know when I reveal very personal information about myself I can spend days ruminating on the reception and questioning myself.
    I’m glad that you felt the strength to express your hurt to Paul and hope you are able to do so again in group. You have every right to seek more support from a service that is supposed to aid you in your recovery and healing!
    I hope they realise this and take steps to give you greater comfort in the future. You deserve that support and care!
    Aimee xx

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Aimee…Opening up is painful and does bring about self-judgement and criticism and I also spend too much time ruminating over people’s responses to me.
      I haven’t spoken to my individual Therapist, Paul yet, he is not part of the group therapy, although I was so furious on Frid I called to cancel my session this week with him. He got the full force of my hurt. I’m waiting to see if anyone calls me. At the end of the group, I was so shattered, I could hardly speak, but did manage to say I wasn’t happy. However, my confidence in the group Therapists is annihilated and I doubt the dumb ass B even realise how I feel. I half expect them not to call me and that will make the invalidation worse!
      Thank you for your understanding and feedback, it helps me beyond words 😉

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      1. borderlinefunctional

        Ooh sorry re) my confusion on your discussion topic with Paul! :/ x
        I think it is immeasurably strong of you to even broach the topic of your abuse history with your therapist and/or the group and I hope that they soon realise how wrong it was to react so poorly and leave someone feeling so unheard and pained.
        Please try not to let their inconsideration affect your feelings of self worth though I know that can be near impossible.
        If you do not get a call it is not a reflection of your worth, but evidence that they are not competent or professional and you deserve better than that!
        I hope you get some resolve soon!
        xx

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        1. Cat Post author

          Thank you, Aimee, now I am two minds whether to call and arrange another time to see Paul 😉 Talk about head up the a… I suppose it’s not his fault and cancelling him might be like cutting my nose off to spite my face. Once again, thank you, much appreciated

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  9. Ellen

    Ugh – groups when they are not working well suck, to put it bluntly. I’m surprised the group leaders let the group get away with chit chat like that. It must have been so frustrating, especially when you had a serious concern to discuss. It does sound like bad group management to me. My own experience in group was also not good, as you know. It seems to hurt more when a group disregards us, as opposed to a single person like a friend. For me it brings back memories of family, school and work situations where I was not treated well.

    My own two cents is that something as sensitive as sexual abuse disclosure is best done with a therapist, one on one. Even though you distrust him at the moment, Paul does seem to be responding appropriately. Maybe once you’ve discussed this more with Paul and started processing it, you’ll be ready to try this topic again with the group. Or maybe not.

    The more I hear about psychodynamic group therapy, the more I suspect that it’s actually extremely difficult to run such a group well, and that most groups are not optimal.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Ellen… This gp T tends to let group runaway, she has been criticised for it in the past. There was one new member and at the end, the T said, “this has been a nice get to know you group”. I was so shattered I could hardly speak but when I said how upset I was, the T said, “But, now there are 7 people in group, not everyone gets a chance to speak.” Stupid idiot couldn’t weigh up the importance of their telly programmes next to my abuse.

      Not being heard, transported me back to childhood. The one good thing is that I connected with my feelings, something that I haven’t done in decades. But, the little professional trust I had for the gp T is out the window and I’m not sure how to get that back.

      I know what you mean about talking to Paul rather than gp about deeper issues. All this came tumbling out because Paul was on holiday, otherwise I would’ve talked to him first. The worst thing about this, Ellen, is that I was so furious Friday, I called to cancel my session with Paul. He will get the message today and also has a team meeting with the others today. However, the dumb ass gp T probably doesn’t even realise the enormity of this. Anyway, I am tempted just to wait and see if they call me. I have another appointment on the day I should be meeting Paul, but he normally reschedules… but, we’ll see what happens today

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  10. stunnedandstunted

    Oh my gosh I am so sorry that happened to you. We don’t expect therapists to remember every tiny detail of our lives so why should they expect that we would tell them everything? It takes time to open up and it’s so sad that when you did something very brave (seriously, I know how hard it is to talk about some stuff, especially in a group) you felt like you weren’t listened to or that the person who should support you didn’t believe you.
    I hope, like others have said, that you’re able to talk to Paul some more about this.

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    1. Cat Post author

      This is what has been on my mind too. I was so much locked in the trauma from the childhood I experienced with my parents, I couldn’t see past it for the last 8 mths and it’s only now that the other stuff is showing up. You would think they might realise this and maybe they do, but they have lacked in demonstrating validation. I will be able to talk to Paul about it but my future in the group is unclear. Thank you for your feedback, it brings me a lot of comfort

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  11. mandy smith

    Cat I feel so badly for you. There is nothing in the whole world that shuts me down faster than even an inkling of disbelief. Sure, sometimes it’s my imagination, but when you’ve been disbelieved before, it’s easy to surmise that no one really believes you. I wish you could have a one on one chat with Frankie. If you could get it out in the open, your feelings and hurt about what you perceive, it might help. As far as I’m concerned, the group is only as respectful as its leaders, and no one should be talking telly and shit during group. Hope I’m not out of bounds. Just standing up for someone I care about.♥

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Mandy, yes, I also feel bad for me 😉 In no way are you out of bounds, you’re spot on. I haven’t felt disbelieved before and that’s what’s so odd about now. Am I projecting unconscious fears onto Frankie or maybe I am sensing her uncertainty? The jury’s still out on that one. I made a big mistake trusting her enough in group because she’s been criticised before for not controlling things in the past, but Paul was off on holiday and it all came blurting out. Whatever, it’s her job to remember the stuff that comes up at the start “check-in” and she did a bad one. Dumb ass B…
      Yes, I will definitely talk to her, I can’t avoid saying anything because it’s my therapy, after all. We’re not allowed to talk outside group, but I don’t have a problem telling her with the others present, some will agree, anyway. I just don’t know where I will find the courage to lay my vulnerabilities bare again Grrrrrr
      Sorry, I’ve blabbed on again. Thank you, Mandy, your support means everything 😉

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      1. mandy smith

        Are you kidding, Cat? I don’t consider one word of this blab! I love also that you don’t have a problem speaking up in group when you’ve got an issue with them. I always shriveled up like a dying flower. I still have a hard time finding my voice when it comes to conflict. I’m so glad you don’t!! It’s maddening when the people who are supposed to be trained to protect our trust, knowing how difficult that one thing is, mismanage it. (Reminds me of what our parents did!) Thanks for laying all this out there, Cat. It’s helpful all the way around.

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            1. Cat Post author

              I think that lack of trust is formed before our memory. That’s probably when the abuse/neglect started, so the trust issues are part of our make up before our earliest memory

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        1. Cat Post author

          Hi Mandy, are you on Facebook?. I just joined, but have no idea how to find friends and can’t seem to be able to work out what my address is for my own FB page

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            1. mandy smith

              FB is an animal of it’s own, Cat, with it’s own way of doing things, Lol! I’ve been trying to make sense of things forever. That is the kind of url we all get–though my writer page does come up as mandy smith writer. The PAGES are a little better in identifying you than the personal profiles page, and you can’t interact on Pages other that replying to what is posted.

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            2. Cat Post author

              Ah, that makes sense, I did wonder if I should create a page. For a while, it looks like you’ll be my one and only friend 😉 I’ll get the hang of it, thanks, Mandy

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  12. Heathers Helpers

    Feeling that you are not being believed can be as traumatizing as the traumas that landed you in therapy in my opinion. I really hope that you continue to open up and try to trust. There is always that chance that they believe you but don;t know how to react. Thinking of yoU!

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    1. Cat Post author

      I know, Heather, that is what I have been learning from your blog recently and can I just say, it is your blog that contributed to me finding my voice to speak out. The problem is, I haven’t trusted anyone in my life, but did trust their professionalism. Sadly, that has gone out the window for the time being, although perhaps I can work to get it back. They probably do believe me and I am just projecting stuff from childhood onto them, but she still did a bad job of keeping track of the group. Thank you for your feedback, I am truly grateful for the encouragement and support

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  13. littlevoicetalks

    WOW!! I just read this and made a noise of such outrage.
    Please Cat, I suffer with BPD too and always looking for validation away from myself. Fact is, you know your experiences to be absolute TRUTH. Carry that it your heart. You don’t have to justify yourself to anyone; you are who you are and that is perfectly imperfect. You have suffered and suffered and suffered, and regardless of these professionals, you are still here, you have survived and your story is unique, beautiful and absolutely yours.

    You know your heart. Maybe the therapy can act as awareness (obviously) and maybe at some point, you get to being okay because you are okay with the things you felt as a person abused. You don’t need validation from an external party. I remember in my 20’s 1994 to 2014, many people disbelieving I had a eating disorder because ‘but you’re not thin!’

    This is their shit, not your. You know what happened. If someone doesn’t believe you then it’s something in them that is being projected on to you. Not your problem.

    You did not ask to be abused, I guess it made you feel special at a point where you were so neglected. That’s the power the abuser has, to make it seem like it was our fault. You NEVER did any wrong. YOU were innocent. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT.

    I am just hazarding a guess that this invalidation from your therapist mimics how you felt with not being able to come forward as a child. Your worst nightmare come true – you are nor believed.

    Here in the blogosphere, things are different. We may not know each other by face or talk on the phone, but we support you, we know your honesty in your raw and open hearted writing.

    I guess we want validation from a ‘therapist’ because it’s a person with profession in the area of the mind. But really, it’s the people who have suffered similar that matter.

    You are not alone, your story counts. You count. xx

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    1. Cat Post author

      Wow, your comment is so spot on accurate in so many many ways. As I was walking the dog today, I did decide that I don’t give a hoot whether they believe me or not. I just don’t understand why I feel they doubt me, it has never crossed my mind before. As you pointed out, I could be projecting my own childhood fears onto them, but she still did a bad job that day. Unfortunately, she has a reputation for not holding it together, stupid woman. It’s dangerous, though. People are baring their vulnerabilities and it’s her job to keep on top. It’s tragic that anyone would walk away from a group feeling they have no voice, shame on her.

      What you said about the abuse…. That it made me feel special in some way. This has always been at the back of my mind as the reasons why I did not feel traumatised. There was no affection at home and, somehow, the inappropriate touching by the neighbour just became the norm and that sounds a bit sick, but I guess that is dysfunction for you.

      The one good thing to come out of all this is that I managed to connect with the feelings for the first time since childhood. It was weird how the group transported me back into that child within. For the first time, I understood exactly why I have never trusted anyone or been able to connect on a deeper level.

      Sorry for my long reply, but your comment really did resonate with me and it brought me a lot of inner strength, thank you so much 😉

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  14. littlevoicetalks

    and please excuse typos. I was so outraged on your behalf, I didn’t re-read my comment. And if I’d been 20 for 20 years (1994-2014), I’d be a big fat miracle and have just recently only turned 30, I wish LOL!!! x

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  15. Sharon Alison Butt

    I agree with the comments I have read although I’ve not had time to peruse them all. I know that I often mis-judge people’s thoughts, especially when they go silent on me, so I’m wondering if there is a possibility that you may have done this too? I am wondering if these ‘experts’ have a secret code of deliberately responding to certain confessions in a certain way. What I mean is, maybe they have been taught to act like that when somebody suddenly shares new information, in order to trigger some kind of response in them. Of course, if this is the case, it hasn’t worked, because they have made you feel smaller than an ant and significantly insulted. Could you perhaps copy and paste the words of this blog onto another sheet of paper and hand it to both her and Paul? You are very good at expressing yourself on ‘paper’ and maybe far better at doing so than verbally? I certainly struggle to get my words out and if I’m stared at in a way that makes me feel intimidated, I can’t communicate effectively – but I can when I’m at the keyboard. Maybe you could also copy and paste the previous blog about the abuse too? That way, they have the full picture. If then, they still act the same way, then everybody’s right and you should raise a stern complaint to Paul. Please consider doing this – obviously, protect yourself so they can’t tell what site you blog on. For all they know, it could be just one person you correspond with regularly, so they don’t accuse you of attention seeking. But you really need to find out one way or another if she is thinking what you suspect, so that you can know for sure. I hope that helps.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Susan, I think you’re right, some of their responses are tailored to trigger, but what the group Therapist failed to do was acknowledge I needed to speak. It transported me back to childhood and I could not find my voice. I suppose the one good thing is that it connected me to feelings long forgotten and, in therapy, that’s always a good thing, but she’s still a stupid woman 😉

      I am able to speak to Paul about everything. I am actually quite good at communicating. As Youth Worker for the Church of Scotland, it was my job to give talks regularly. However, when there is so much emotion and anger involved, I struggle to string two words together and can fall to pieces before your eyes!

      Thank you so much for commenting, your feedback is always helpful

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      1. Sharon Alison Butt

        Oh, I see. Yes that is not good. Their response was not an emotionally healthy one. I understand what you mean about the anger and emotion making it hard to speak – that is why I suggested handing them your written feelings. But I’m sure you are given advice from all corners of WordPress and you have to decipher what is best to do out of all of the words of comfort. Not an easy job, I imagine. I do think that you should not let her get away with it because if she is doing this to you she is hurting others also. Please tell Paul how you are feeling and seriously consider handing him your written emotions because you will probably get very emotional and may not be able to blurt your words out properly. That way, he cannot misunderstand what you are trying to say. Good luck x

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  16. Glynis Jolly

    Dear Cat,
    I’m so sorry that this has happened to you. Do you think you can confront this Frankie person and ask her why she acts that way? Her behavior is unacceptable as a therapist. Is she a doctor? I hope not.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Glynis, she is a trained Psychotherapist but there was a Dr in the room, a Psychiatrist. She was as bad as Frankie. Yes, I am as good with my tongue as I am with written word. It’s just on Friday, I was so overcome with emotion, I did what I always do, crumble. I lose my voice and fall apart. But with days between, I can easily tell her exactly what I feel. I won’t be the first to tell her she’s not in control of the group.
      Thank you, Glynis. I’m still intrigued about the man or woman thing 😉

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  17. mm172001

    We’re listening and for what it’s worth I believe you. Society and therapists for some reason seem to “rank” abuse usually in the order of sexual, physical, verbal, emotional. So it may seem doubtful that you would not mention the most “important” of the type of abuse. Which seems so stupid when people tell you about how validation is so important.

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  18. CUCH

    I find it incredulous in this day and age that still people disbelieve others when they say they have been abused. Even when people are lying about it, assuming there is no malice involved, there is probably an underlying reason – a psychological problem to make them want to do it.

    Deepest sympathies, I hope you have a better reaction next time from people whose job it is to care.

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    1. Cat Post author

      It beggars belief, really. I can’t quite get my head around why an adult would want to claim sexual abuse if it didn’t happen. As you say, there must be something deeply psychological going on. I am probably projecting my childhood feelings onto her and maybe she does believe me, but she failed to keep hold of group and the issues raised. Anyway, thank you for commenting, it helps the journey 😉

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  19. martha0stout

    It isn’t unusual to be locked in dealing with one trauma and take forever to mention another that, to other people, should have been mentioned earlier. Each person reacts to trauma differently, but for some reason it always surprises people when they find out that someone has more than one traumatic event to discuss once they’ve become comfortable enough to finally move onto another one.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Yes, Martha, I have been thinking much the same and maybe I am projecting childhood feelings onto her, but she did handle it badly. It has been a difficult but positive part of the therapeutic journey. I’ve only told them two “trauma’s”… wait till they hear the rest 😉
      Thank you for your feedback, always appreciated

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      1. martha0stout

        You always make me think and help me to realize that for all that people are so very different, there are moments that we all share the same feelings and that we aren’t as alone as we sometimes seem.

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  20. fromthedarkintothesunshine42

    Cat ,I’m incredibly sorry for this turning out like this….who the hell do they think they are?
    But in reading your blog I also sense an incredible strong person who’s staying with feelings bravely that takes courage. ..

    Keep striving my friend
    Sending love
    Lisa

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    1. Cat Post author

      Thank you, Lisa, that is very nice of you to say. This has all been a bit of a journey, but hey, it’s therapy after all. The one good thing is it connected me with feelings I forgot I even had 😉

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  21. janetcate

    I am sorry that you came away from your session feeling like no one believed you and that you felt like you had lost your voice. I hope that you can go back to the group and share your feelings. I will be thinking of you and sending you positive energy for your next group.

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    1. Cat Post author

      Hi Janet… Yes, it was a very difficult experience, but we did manage to sort it out in the end. I have individual therapy on a weds and group therapy on Friday’s, so your positive energy is most welcome. Thank you for your support.

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  22. starkinsanity

    Some therapists can’t face it because they don’t understand how awful it is. They think that anyone can claim to be abused and that it isn’t a big deal. Other therapists think that if you are functioning too well, you were not abused. Still others seem to think that you caused the trauma by being difficult and it’s your fault.
    All of that is bullshit and I’ve called out psychiatrists in the past who have tried to tell me these things. The more you stand up to this Frankie, the more you keep speaking out, the more empowered you will feel and the more you will realise that some therapists are simply badly trained. X

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  23. Tessa

    I am so sorry they don’t believe you although it does not surprise me. That seems to be a topic ignored more than anything else. I hope you find someone to listen to you so you can get some of this off your chest.

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  24. EmWell2

    I BELIEVE YOU and AM LISTENING. “why have you not brought this up before?” Someone actually asked you that? Therapy is hard enough without having to bring up abuse. Any kind of abuse. I am so glad you found your voice. Keep talking you have much to share.

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